Apparently the news of my wishing to attend law school has spread like wildfire throughout my firm. I had kept my aspirations a secret for two years, fielded questions about what I was hoping to do with my political science degree, and whether I still saw a future for myself working as a paralegal at my firm. Among many reasons, the main reason for me keeping things under wraps was my own fear and anxiety. I was afraid that if I told anyone about my goals and bombed the LSAT or wasn’t able to get-in to law school I would be too embarrassed to face the attorneys I work with, much less the other secretaries and paralegals at my firm (who would likely snicker at me).
So I waited until I received my LSAT score back and could be assured I would at least get in somewhere. That was a month ago. Since then, I told two attorneys, and now the entire support staff seem to not only know, but to make this news priority among the latest office gossip. Which, apparently, is causing quite a stir with the partners too. In the last two weeks I have: 1) received congratulations from my co-workers; 2) confided in that they at one point had similar aspirations and regret not “going for it”; 3) asked if I need my head examined; and 4) talked about in my presence (hiding behind a bathroom stall).
This morning I arrived at the office to receive the following email from our office manager:
Law School Dreamer -
While the partners and I are happy to hear about your decision to attend law school and your recent success on the LSAT, we are concerned that the news has become the center of increased “chit-chat” throughout the firm. This decreases productivity and could create tension among your co-workers. If possible, please refrain from discussing your aspirations and future plans at the workplace.